Welcome To The BlogSpot!!

OH GOD OH FUCK [2025/04/24]

So.... report cards are out on Friday... I'm failing two of my classes... *laughs* I'm in danger!! :D

It's science and geo (who's suprised by this honestly) and I don't know what to do!! I'm probably gonna clean out my locker and bag of all my old and unfinished work again, just incase. Hopefuly my friends will help me with that. Also!! I just exploded a goldfish snack on my friends desk while typing this so... uh... oopsie daisy??????

I Don't Like That. [2025/04/23]

So, one of my friends kissed me... without asking... after saying he wanted me...uh..

He knows about this site so he'll probably see this, but I don't care!! Yeah, I do have friends that I kiss, but it's always platontic! Me and my friends often make sex joke for shits and giggles and he knows that the stuff I say is a joke, I've directly told him that most things I say irl are jokes. However, he hugged me (I was giving hugs to some of my other friends) and then kissed me completely out of nowhere?? I genuinly feel so uncomfortable now, like I want to rip my skin off, like I wanna vomit, like I need to scream out all my organs.

I get that what happened wasn't that bad but I don't like being touched out of nowhere and don't like the feeling of being kissed (and I hate being kissed in public.) so that's nice!! I'm gonna talk to him about it later but I needed to rant a bit first.

One Of My Bracelets Broke... [2025/04/17]

My "spread the word" Smile Dog bracelet broke yesterday, it was one of my favorites... Oh well, I'll just make a new one since I found most of the beads!! Either way.. IT'S SO NICE OUTSIDE!!! YAYAYAYAYYAYAYYYY!!! I also have food and my own lunch for once in my life, thats cool. TBH today had been a bit boring, at least I have both Friday and Monday off? Long weekends mean more time to read and play games (and add more stuff to the site!!). I might add my Email to the site so people like you guys can speak to me if you need anything, though, if I don't you can still talk to me through SpaceHey and Tumblr (Or through one of the two Chat Rooms on the site)!!

Regardless of all that, my life is getting a bit better! I did see my midterm mark and I'm not doing that bad.. but I do need to start doing better in science-

I LOVE COMPUTER CHARACTERS [2025/04/16]

I keep hyperfixating on characters who are also computers and robots. Stuff like Portal, Electric Dreams, IHNMAIMS, Inscryption, SCP foundation, ect have been consuming me again!! Yay!! Doesn't help that I've got the whole objectum thing making me feel things for real life computers (and transmission towers, but thats a different story..) so... oops?? But I genuinely love silly computer characters so much grrrrrr...

In other news, one of my friends game me a USB stick with Halo download on it?? So now I just have Halo on my school laptop for later, better than nothing and Halo can be fun. I also realized that the project I'm making in art can double as a bong... so... tee hee. ALSO I JUST FOUND OUT THAT WELCOME HOME GOT UPDATED WHAT???? NOBODY THOUGHT TO TELL ME????? GAHHHHHHHH I'M CUTTING THIS POST SHORT SO I CAN GO CHECK IT OUT!!

Things are getting better? [2025/04/15]

My mom and her boyfriend stopped fighting... thats good, I still feel tired because of it all but at least I can sleep now. I literally passed out yesterday at 6PM because of how sick and sleepy I was!! I woke up at 3AM with some drinks and snack on my bed desk (the table Next to my bed that isn't the nightstand). Anyways, my mom bought a 10$ rake and it broke in less than 10 minutes!! Hello?? Fuck you Canadian Tire!! Other than that not much has happened.

I Love Waking Up At 4AM!! [2025/04/14]

Guess who woke up at 4AM too the sound of his mother yelling for him because she got into a fight with her boyfriend while he was drunk because he came back at 3AM without tilling her that he'd be out passed midnight and didn't text her till he was 5 minutes away? I did!! Why am I not allowed to even sleep anymore? like... dude... She doesn't want to talk to him since he's mad at her for being upset over not knowing where he was, but I would be upset too if i was dating someone and he showed up drunk at 3AM!

I had to use a cig like it was a talking stick to get both of them to stop talking over each other, these are fully grown adults who are 20-ish years older than me, why do I have to treat them like this is kindergarden and they were throwing a tantrum (or however you spell it...)?? Now I'm sitting in class, tired out of my fucking mind because I didn't get any sleep yesterday and was only able to get to sleep last night by the time it was 1AM, and it doesn't help that I wake up at 4:30 every morning because of how I dress making me take atleast 30 minutes and my chores/making food for lunch and breakfast taking so god damn long! Hopefully they will have this whole thing worked out by the time I get back.

I'm just gonna act like none of this is going on while I'm at school, it's easier to just act like Iv'e been spending all night reading P03 x reader fanficion and that I'm just sleepy because of that.

I Hate Him So Much [2025/04/07]

Guess who has to deal with the science teachers stupid stamp system. He puts half the projects online even though the wifi doesn't work half the time, refuses to help me understand whatever the fuck I'm suppost to be learning, doesn't count full assignments and only counts quizes for marks, gets mad at me for saying the word "crap", and a ton of other stupid stuff that doesn't even make sense!

He wouldn't even let me hand something in because the line of a graph wasn't straight! I even tried fixing it 5 times with a ruler and he still didn't take it for god knows what reason! I genuinly can't take it anymore! I don't care if I fail that class even though I genuinly love science, I was even planning to take two different science courses next year but now I probably wont be able to because one teacher doesn't understand how dumb his system is.

I also have no food today since I woke up late, have no money, and we had literally no fucking food at my house! Amazing! I'm having such a good day!! I'm literaly just goning to dissociate my way through the day and lie to my mom about handing in everything because I dont have all the different stamp papers that I aparently need to hand something in. Oh! By the way, my teacher knows that I do my work, he's seen me do it multiple times but still doesn't understand that I struggle to keep up with handing stuff in due to the system he's set in place!

That's all for now but there's 100% more to come. Lets hope I don't have all my stuff taken away from me over this!!

So Far So Good... [2025/04/04]

I didn't wake up late today!! that's good.. I'm also wearing one of my favorite shirts from SpookySparkleParty right now! Though I'm wearing it ass a dress since they only make plus sized clothes and I am the polar opposite of plus sized (under weight), either way I think it looks good! Other than that I've been daydreaming a lot lately. Maybe it's due to stress but I haven't been able to focus without zoning out and getting lost in my thoughts for hours on end, I hope this doesn't affect my school work and work work any more than it already has.

This morning I had a tea before I left, it was good but I almost burned my mouth! I really need to be more careful.. I also have some honey flavored Pokemon cookies for lunch!

VENT

I genuinely do not have the motivation to do any work, I am actually going to fail if I don't get my shit together. I only have the motivation to get dressed cute outfits but some days I don't even have the motivation to do that! It's like I'm unable to sleep and I have an overwhelming sense of dread. I just wish that I could sit around and be pretty and get paid for it. That's all I'm good for anyways. If anything I'd rather just be a sugarbaby, my life would be so much easier if I was. I wouldn't have to work, I wouldn't have to justify my existance, I'd just be able to go shopping and be silly all day everyday. That would be my dream life.

I Woke Up So Fucking Late!! [2025/04/03]

You read the title correctly!! I woke up 30 minutes after class starts! That means that my entire walk to school made me get to class during second period, that means I miss science, science is the class I'm doing worst in! I'm absolutly fucked, now I need to go to his class during lunch and get the papers I need.

I'm lowkey gonna fail two of my classes so.... wish me luck!!

First Post!! [2025/04/02]

Hello and welcome to my blog!! I'll simply be using this as an extra place to ramble on stuff (Not unlike my SpacheyHey blog, however these posts will be less frequent and will be more personal!!) and will be a place to share my thoughts!

Today I had some off-brand cereal for breakfast and mac'n'cheese for lunch. It was fine but I've definetly had better, I made it though so it was going to be mid regardless. I also started doing a project for school, specifically one on breast cancer. I think I'll do fine on it but I'm going to ask my friends to help me with notes since I suck at keeping track of that stuff. I also have to finish two large projects for Geo since my teacher doesn't understand that you shouldn't load a bunch of teenagers with jobs and other classes up with way more work than they can handle. I dunno, I might make an ask box where everyone in the class can submit resources for everyone to use (but if I do that I'll need to use a different email to make a whole different site that they can access since I don't want them finding this site.

Other than school, I've been doing more coding! I found this SpaceHey Layout that was made to look like a 2000s forum and ended up changing some of the photos and tweaking the colours till I liked them, I think it's pretty cute. I might make a CatBox to save graphics on a place that isn't Tumblr, that way I'll also be able to view images on school wifi without everything being blocked for no fucking reason!!

That's all for now... Buh Baii!!